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Fenced In

Once while fencing my heart
I chanced upon an impossible dream
A dream I suppressed countless times
It rose, in beauty, on feet of hope
And embraced a tear drop out of me
With hurried steps I rushed away
To find my mask, my book of sense
To invalidate my yesterday
Then turned to build my trusted fence
There it lies unto this day
Un-nurtured, neglected, growing still
I hoped it gone, wished it away
And yet it remains against my will
Time and time again I leave it at the gallows
I walk away and pronounce it dead
The tenderness lying deep in my heart fights inside
I look back and find it there
In my mind it seems miles away
But truly it’s only steps away
Beguiling tangible....agonizingly beautiful
And mercilessly invisible to all but me

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