This afternoon as I was driving down the open fields of the long winding country road behind my house I was captivated by the icy green fields extending over miles and the glistening long river that ran through the fields. I felt care free and at home surrounded by such beauty. I suddenly realized how I had an endless list of possibilities ahead. I thought of the journey I had ahead and the years of solitude I would have once I had done my job of being a mother. But I did not want to sit in a quiet room sipping cups of tea and watching telly. I always knew that my life had a different purpose. I wanted to be a voice for the voiceless in countries extending farther than the west. I wanted to be centered right in the middle of a conflict and be a walking stick for the ones who had no one standing up for them. My need to help people and my love for caring and giving kindness to others and being ever so forgiving is no longer a curse to me as I have always thought, because the voic