The Wire

This afternoon as I was driving down the open fields of the long winding country road behind my house I was captivated by the icy green fields extending over miles and the glistening long river that ran through the fields.  I felt care free and at home surrounded by such beauty.  I suddenly realized how I had an endless list of possibilities ahead.  I thought of the journey I had ahead and the years of solitude I would have once I had done my job of being a mother.  But I did not want to sit in a quiet room sipping cups of tea and watching telly. I always knew that my life had a different purpose.  I wanted to be a voice for the voiceless in countries extending farther than the west.  I wanted to be centered right in the middle of a conflict and be a walking stick for the ones who had no one standing up for them.  My need to help people and my love for caring and giving kindness to others and being ever so forgiving is no longer a curse to me as I have always thought, because the voic

Last night as I drove through the busy lit roads looking at the bright evening sky with the wind blowing in my face I thought of you.  I thought of you and wondered where you were, what you were doing, what you were thinking, and if, just if, there were any ifs in your mind......On nights like this I feel like the skies above me feel my sorrow and yet somehow I feel free..maybe its because I feel one when immersed in such beauty or maybe because it's those times that I can be true to myself and you...who knows..but I still hear the voices and questions in my head, the minute I'm alone or lying in bed or when I open my eyes to the bright specks of sunlight streaming through my curtains and the innocent singing of the mockingbird outside my bedroom window, I hear them, it's as if with your exit came a new companion for me, my own companionship, my twin who always lived in my subconscious but far from haunting me, now she haunts me every day with her continuous questions....Wh

So it's that time of the year again.  Cardigans, warm socks, big mugs of coffee and hot chocolate, nice quiet evenings by the telly or curling up to read a nice romantic novel, salting the driveway, waking up early to shovel the beautiful glistening snow in the early morning moonlight. Before we welcome Winter to our doors we must first welcome its best friend, Autumn.  I love Autumn mainly for  how crisp it feels in the morning and the bright vibrant colors the leaves change to.  I love watching my kids excitedly collect big gigantic leaves in all sort of colors and sizes so that we can make our Fall collage.  I like hearing the wind howl at night as it blows the leaves to and fro making all sorts of noises.  The colors that this season brings is just breathtaking, it makes you take seconds out of your days and evenings to marvel over God's creations...makes you realize that anything and everything is possible. And Fall brings with it a season of new beginnings, the beautif

Sometimes I wake up and I miss you so much My eyes suddenly fill with tears and I find myself drunken in deep sobs Sobs that grow deeper and more raw each passing day I don't think the grief you've given me will ever leave my side It will never relinquish it's reigns from me Every time I think I'm moving one step forward I find myself ten steps behind This pain was inflicted by you and yet why do I still yearn for you Why do I find myself lost in your memories Why do I still hear your voice, smell your smell.... Why are you still in me... Each memory eats at me like a sharp dagger piercing through my heart at an unbelievable slow speed, wanting to make me feel each tear... This Is brutal, this is unending,  and the pain has too many sides.....

Liza quickly darted in between the bushes hoping to be as far as she could from the house and the rest of civilization. She wanted to be as alone and far as possible from them all. The looks of sympathy and pity were becoming the death of her. The voices of people and the looks they gave her were like ten deaths over and over again. It seemed that the world had reached a verdict and the verdict was that they would not let her grieve on her own. Liza As I ran down the hill and darted through the maze of bushes towards the cliff for a fleeting second I pondered over whether or not I should jump to my death. One jump would end it all. The looks of sympathy and disdain would forever be out of my mind. Lost in myself I suddenly came to an abrupt stop and was standing at the edge of the cliff. I took one step forward and looked down. It was a beautiful sight. The water was sparkling in the glorious sun as seagulls glided to and fro looking for their morning meal. The sky was painted so b

There are many things the UK is good for and one of them is how the media allows the public to take national TV screens, set up panels, and voice their opinions... Of course in the UK there are two very big issues which affect all UK citizens, benefits and immigration. There are so many illegal immigrants living here in the UK under the radar of the UKBA who will eventually be caught and while they are hiding well earned tax payers money is going towards feeding them. And then you have another group of immigrants both within and outside of the Euro coming in to the UK legally however taking away all the jobs which you and I, citizens of the UK, should have to feed our families. But here’s the thing the British economy is thriving BECAUSE of these immigrants. They come into the country hoping to live the British dream by working hard and feeding their families so they are open to doing any job that is available to them. A lot of the jobs they have are low pay grueling jobs which most

It's been a long winter already...loads of holidays, sicknesses, clearing out, and now it's half term! Seems like the year is almost over, but it's just begun! We've gotten past all the New years stuff and just this week it was Valentines Day...or shall I say a malfunctioned store spending fake holiday! I don't understand this holiday at all or all the hoopla people make of it.  Are you saying that you love me the most only on this day??? I thought you loved me every day??!! And why buy me a red teddy, red roses, and a box of red roses chocolates?  Why not buy them for me every day :)    I'll be the happiest, reddest, and fattest chic around this end!  I think romance has become so fabricated these days what with all the break ups and make ups and money splurged on flowers and candy that real romance has flown right out the window.  Shall I tell you what my kind of romance is? The old fashioned kind..love letters, a written one, at least once a month.  A

 gave you all I had I gave you my heart I gave you my life I gave you my soul I gave you my happiness I gave you my tears I gave you my hope And I gave you even  more But what did you give me? You gave me pain You gave me shame You gave me heartache You gave me burdens to carry You gave me loss You gave me lies You wrapped me with defeat You surrounded me with evil And then you vanished. And now I've grieved I've shed so many tears I've felt my heart shudder I've felt my body age I've felt my heart harden I have only one more space,  A space left unfilled A space filled with fear I'm afraid because of you The space I have is small but true I need truth. The one above,  only he knows I trust in him and him alone He is the judger of all judges Some day he will catch up with you It will be a day of great truth All my tears and heartache, They will wrap around you, And shake you in a fury,  And spread pain in every corner of your body, He will spread it to yo