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Lost in you....

Sometimes I wake up and I miss you so much
My eyes suddenly fill with tears and I find myself drunken in deep sobs
Sobs that grow deeper and more raw each passing day
I don't think the grief you've given me will ever leave my side
It will never relinquish it's reigns from me
Every time I think I'm moving one step forward I find myself ten steps behind
This pain was inflicted by you and yet why do I still yearn for you
Why do I find myself lost in your memories
Why do I still hear your voice, smell your smell....
Why are you still in me...
Each memory eats at me like a sharp dagger piercing through my heart at an unbelievable slow speed, wanting to make me feel each tear...
This Is brutal, this is unending,  and the pain has too many sides.....
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