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 gave you all I had
I gave you my heart
I gave you my life
I gave you my soul
I gave you my happiness
I gave you my tears
I gave you my hope
And I gave you even more
But what did you give me?
You gave me pain
You gave me shame
You gave me heartache
You gave me burdens to carry
You gave me loss
You gave me lies
You wrapped me with defeat
You surrounded me with evil
And then you vanished.
And now I've grieved
I've shed so many tears
I've felt my heart shudder
I've felt my body age
I've felt my heart harden
I have only one more space, 
A space left unfilled
A space filled with fear
I'm afraid because of you
The space I have is small but true
I need truth.
The one above,  only he knows
I trust in him and him alone
He is the judger of all judges
Some day he will catch up with you
It will be a day of great truth
All my tears and heartache,
They will wrap around you,
And shake you in a fury, 
And spread pain in every corner of your body,
He will spread it to your core, 
To your spirit,  your soul
He will not let you go.....
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